2020 sucked…the end…

I thought 2009 was the worst year of my life but 2020 has beaten it hands down, the thing is 2009 was awful because the universe took people out of my life but they replaced them with good people who in the past 12 years have shown to be worth they weight in gold.

However, 2020 has just been take, take, take, take and given nothing back, it started off great I actually felt like 2020 was going to be a great year.
I really hoped that I would wake up 1^st Jan 2021 and the world would have been reset and it was some kind of cosmic test and it was whatever supreme being is out there saying “ok that was a sim, now this is your chance to get it right!”

This year I’ve lost both my friend Kim and my Dad, I’ve hardly seen Midnight and Ally who I have missed so much and can’t wait to see them again asap.
There has been hardly any cons or wrestling which I’ve really missed I think I’ve only been to two cons and two wrestling shows which has been strange to say the least, this is because of covid 19 which has been awful, it’s taken it toll on so many people emotionally and money wise, people have lost loved one, Jobs.

The year actually started off on a high, On the 31th of Jan I went to Grand pro wrestling Back with a bang which is the opening show for each year.
There was some awesome matches, there was-:

1. Four-Way match which had Matthew Brooks vs Chase Alexander (w/ Melanie Price), Big Guns Joe & Dan Evans
2. Craig Kollins vs Tyson T-Bone 
3. The Billington Bulldogs (Mark & Thomas Billington) vs The House of Isaiah (Jacob North & Nick Maguire) (w/ Isaiah Quinn)
4. Rio vs Dylan Roberts (w/ Alan Tasker)
5. Lucas Steel vs RP Davies
6. Four-Way match GPW British Champion, Sandy Beach & Tom Thelwell def. Ashton Smith & Soner Dursun, Jack Griffiths & Jimmy Jackson & Reece & Rogan.

It was a great show has always along with conventions going to watch wrestling is me let lose when my anxiety is really bad and my depression tries to take hold, it’s when I get to shout abuse at the heels and cheer on the faces.

I also got to take part in colleges February showcase which was my first performance of the year.

I performed Don’t judge me, trees of green and Judas’ speech from Jesus Christ superstar although I didn’t sing it, I would never subject any one to that.

I also got to show a film I had been working on which, and I’m going to blow my own trumpet here I think it was one of the best pieces of work I’ve done. I am so proud of because of all the work everyone on the course who was in it put in to it for me.

My first comic con of the year was Bolton comic con on the 22/02/2020, I took Ethan with me, it was so much fun.
Has even though I have taken him to cons before I took him to Wigan Comic con when he was 3, I think, and I also took him to Guardians of the galleys when he was 5 I think, but now he is older and really did seem to enjoy it more he didn’t know any of the guests I met but he loved running up to cosplayers and getting pictures with them he also loved the stalls that was there.
When I was at the con I got to meet Mat Fraser, Nikki Diamond (Scorpio from Gladiators), and Clive Mantle.
They was really sweet and very nice I had a lovely chat with Clive about Robin the hooded man and how the music used to freak me out, but I loved the show.

I was also originally meeting Mat to get an auto for Midnight but he was so cool I got a photo with him and then I found out he was in his dark materials which I enjoyed so was really cool.

I had been a fan of gladiators in my teens and I’ve only met a handful of people from the show so to add Scorpio to the list was epic and again she was amazing.

On the 23/02/2020 I took part in the WATC fundraising event which was so much fun to be a part of it was the second and last time I got to perform live in 2020.
I got to do Don’t judge me and trees of green my mum and Layla came to support me although Layla didn’t quite understand that you had to watch people perform but it was so lovely to see her there.

Then the second con was 2258 which was the weekend after Bolton where me, Midnight and Ally went to Telford.
It was a weekend con for the show B5, I didn’t know much about B5 has it had been such a long time since I had watched it although I do enjoy the show and if I see it on one of the channels
I will watch it.

However, I was there for Midnight who was meeting one of their hero’s, Jason Carter, and I wanted to support them even though I had enjoyed the show like I said I was there to support them, but also to meet Tracy Scoggins who had played Cassandra in the TV show Highlander so I wanted a chance to meet her. I’ve only met a hand few of Highlander actors and she was in one two of my favarote episodes so any excuse.

It was amazing to see Midnight meet one of their hero’s I was so happy for them has they had wanted to meet Jason for so long and it was just amazing to be there and a part of it finally happening for them.

On the 05^th March that was the last GPW show of 2020, not that we knew that then we all thought that there would be a show in May, how wrong we were.
the matches were-:

Fast Track Four-Way match
Tom Thelwell def. Big Guns Joe, Chase Alexander & Sheikh El Sham

CJ Banks def. Jacob North

Six Man Tag Team match
Kameron Solas, Dan Evans & Scott Oberman def. Rio, Jimmy Jackson & Jack Griffiths

GPW British Championship Three-Way match
Champion, Sandy Beach def. Soner Durson & Tom Thelwell

GPW Tag Team Championship match
Champion, The Austins (Lana & LA Austin) def. Matthew Brooks & Taonga

After that was when everything started to go down hill, around the 20^th March we was put in to lock down, we had to shut college down early and go on home learning.
At the time Layla and Ethan (my friends children) was with us when we went into lockdown and ended up staying with us for almost the first month has Danielle, their mum, works in a care home so she had to wait until where she worked did the rota so there was some one at home with the kids while she and her partner worked if that be her or her partner.

On the 6^th April I did an online performance to raise money for an autism charity which I really did enjoy it was a lot of fun to do, I think I ended up raising £50.

I found other ways to perform such has doing online open mics over Zoom and with college I took part in a melodrama called “The deadly dashing & the dastardly dreadful,” It was a lot of fun to do and I loved ever second of it.

It was Steampunk inspired; I played a captain of an Air ship called Victoria Valiant.

In April I was meant to be taking part in watc’s first production “wheelers fortune” but this didn’t happen thanks to zoom though we were able to still have a rehearsal

After that things seemed to slow down a little during May to July, I did a few more online open mics one of them we got zoom bombed on one of them which I think was June time

I also did a story telling open mic which I hoped would give my muses a kick, it did slightly but I’ve only written one piece of fan fiction this year.

June, we finished college which was strange and sad I had hoped we would be allowed back then we could say goodbye to everyone before people started their new adventure to uni or work which ever they were doing but sadly we weren’t but I hope that everyone is doing well and enjoying what they are doing now.

In June things was lifted slightly still not able to do conventions or go to wrestling but I understood why even though I missed going a great deal I know it’s for the best to keep everyone safe I know Covid is dangerous and didn’t want that on my hands for anyone.

August came it was the worst month I can remember I started working in a shop which was good but, on the 13th, I woke up expecting to have my results of my course I checked my college account and… nothing others started posting their results and I started to panic.

I rang college up and was told that some of my results from my first year hadn’t been submitted which I knew they had been has I had seen them.

This started a back and forth between me and college trying to find out my results and when I got told it had been handed to the principle that was all I needed and my anxiety and depression hit the roof specially since it was a Friday and would have to wait till the Monday to know, all kinds of things started going round my head.

Was my work not as good as I thought? Were they going to change my grade? When I got my grades last year for the first year had they been marked wrong? Was my work to close to someone else’s? Just every worse case went round in my head.

This was also the same day I found out my friend Kim had died, that was… To say a kick makes it sound small but right now it’s the only word I can think of.

I had only spoken to her the week before it was hard to process and get my head round.

I had Kim’s death and my missing grades to get my head round and reading that back it makes me sound so selfish has Kim’s family had it so much worse than I did at that time.

The Monday I had to get my mum to phone college up to see if there was any new about my results there was still no news but the promised and I would hear that day, the did ring me back and told me they had them but couldn’t give them over the phone.

I did get them the next day and I came out with 2 D and a D* which some people might not think has that good but on the course, I was doing it is the same has 2 As and a A*.

It was a relief to finally have them.

2 weeks before my birthday we went into a local lock down this meant I couldn’t travel anywhere and a lot of places had to re-close so spent my birthday local which wasn’t that bad has I spent it with Ethan and Layla.

We went 10pin bowling which was fun has Layla had never been before and when she tried to pick up a 16-pound ball it was so funny has she is, or was has it seems like she gets taller every time I see her, so tiny.

By September our local lock down had lifted my dad was admitted to hospital on the 3^rd September he had started showing signs of ill health end of June start of July but he would not go to the hospital.

5^th I was able to travel to Liverpool and see Ally and Midnight, which mum okayed has I hadn’t seen since March, and do a birthday meet with them, it was awesome to see them has I had really missed them.

We went for a Greek meal and had a walk round Liverpool it was really nice and I love that day has it meant a great deal to me.

14^th September I started uni which I was really looking forward to, there was myself, Owen, Jake, Tamzin and Jemima who was on the course from our year.
This was also the day I found out my dad had cancer for the second time.

I had kind of readied myself for the news but still that was again a kick to the guts I guess it’s one of them you can think you can ready yourself but you never really do.

Everything seemed to get back to some kind of normal or has normal has it could be, in October.

Dad seemed to be getting better I actually thought great he’ll start his treatment and beat it again.

We were told dad would be having Chemo so myself, my mum and my uncle decided to do the brave the shave and shave our heads we were told just before he would be having radiotherapy but we thought what the hell well do it anyway so on the 10^th October that’s what we did.

About two weeks after that he took ill again and was readmitted to hospital.

Then November we went back into a lock down where everything shut down again but 5^th November while I was getting ready to go to uni we got a phone call to say mum needed to get up to the hospital quickly has there wasn’t much more they could do for him he had contacted Covid 19 while being in hospital.

Danielle let me stay at hers that night so I wasn’t alone, then the 6^th we were told both to get up to the hospital we went up I didn’t recognise him, he was grey lost even more weight he just didn’t look like my dad anymore, then on the 7^th myself and mum went to get done breakfast has we had been on the ward all night when we came back, he took his last breath and just went.

Thank the angel for Ally and Midnight who was a rock for me that day and had been since everything started.

Me and mum had to self-isolate for 14 days which was hard as we couldn’t really do anything to short things out for the funeral luckily dad had something in his policy where someone else could do all of that.

After the 14 days I went back to uni was really glad to see everyone and I couldn’t have asked for a better group of people to have around me although we were told that on the

On 3^rd of December everything started to reopen but we were told Uni was going to be going into a fire breaker which meant that we would be finishing Uni two weeks early and meant two weeks of home learning.

That’s basically my 2020 and you can see why I said 2020 sucked this year has been bad for me although I’m sure so many people have had it worse than I have.

All I can hope is that 2021 (or 2020+1) has I call it is better than this one I wish you all a happy new year and all the best for the new year and hope that things return to normal soon.