Yeah, so I’m different.
Who cares? Not me.
You know, I’m different.
You know, I’m unique.
You know that I breathe, I bleed, I love, I feel… Don’t judge me.
Why do people judge me? I don’t know.
Why do people mock me? I don’t know.
Why do people call me names? I don’t know, I don’t know… Don’t judge me.
Is it my colour?
Is it my creed?
Is it my team?
Is it my school?
Is it my sexuality?
Is it my disability?
Don’t…judge…me!
I’m still trying to work out what things to post on here and I’ve been thinking about posting my poams/monologues.
Is that something people would like to see? Is it something people whould be interested in?
I have quite a few I can post if people would like that.
I had so been looking forward to this hoodie coming and I wasn’t disappointed.
The next part of my unus annus merch came It arrived early it wasn’t meant to be here for two more weeks maybe three, but it got here yesterday.
At first it felt thin and not very warm but when I put it on it was a lot warmer than I thought, granted I did at times have a coat on but when I took my dog out for his last walk and I didn’t have a coat on then.
Even then it was quite warm I did feel a little bit of a chill but not enough to be freezing and that was at 9.30pm.
This is becoming one of my favourite hoodies it is so soft and comfortable to where it’s warm but not to heavy, it’s just amazing.
Sorry for the lateness in this blog but this week my mental health has been over the place.
If you was to see me on the street and ask me how I am if I’m OK I would say yes thank you I’m grand… And that’s because I am, I’m good, but I’m not… But I am…but I’m not if that makes sense.
I’ve not stepped foot outside the house all week and today is the first day I’ve actually got out my pj’s and stepped foot out side the house.
The thing is nothing major has happened, I’ve been getting great feed back from uni, I took part in a open mic, the only thing is my videos wouldn’t edit it just something so small but it’s floored me, but if I had been out and you would have seen me I would have smiled and said I’m good.
Everyone seems to think has mental health has locking yourself in your room in the darkness , listening to dark music, just crying in your room, but mental health is more complex than that.
It’s not a one size fits all every person who has mental health issues is different just because one person is one way with their mental health dose not mean Joe Bloggs down the road is going to be the same.
No matter what anyone with a mental health issue should be treated with love, support and respect.
On Monday I restart my medication has my anxiety has caused other health issues, nothing serious but I will need other medication to sort that out.
My sleep is all over the shop I only got sleep at 7am this morning, it’s been getting 3/4am when I get sleep.
I’m hoping these medicines will get things leveled again so I can get back to some kind or normal.
This is the last trainer shoe blog, I got these again from everything for £5.
They are more of a smarter trainer than the other two I got, they are a black canvas trainer, these are more to be worn has a shoe not a trainer that you go to the gym in these can be worn has a everyday type of shoe.
I love the little logo on them and they feel nice to the touch, they have white sitching and just think they are cute.
Like I say they are planner than they other two but I still think they are awesome and would go with anything, specially when summer comes back around and, fingers crossed given the English weather, when I am able to wear summer dresses or summer colthes in gen they will go with them.
They will go with leggins or jeans, black shoes are pretty much like a black dress it’s something everyone shoud have and they will go with anything.
Some more trainers that I bought on everything for £5, I saw these online and they really jumped out at me.
I loved the sparkles on them I thought that you could move your hands over the sparkles over them and changed but they don’t, I don’t mind though has the colours are amazing.
They don’t feel don’t feel to heavy which is good but they feel like there is enough to give my ankle support.
https://www.everything5pounds.com/en/Dual-Sided-Sequin-Contrast-Trainers/p/687746-361981-275
One site I really like and came in handy in the last lock down was everything for 5pound.
I think it might very well come in handy again in the second.
last week I decided I was going to do some unboxing videos.
One thing I am very short of is shoes, yes I know some people might think “every girl says that!” But I really do.
I saw 4 pairs I really liked, 3 trainers and a pair of ankle boots.
The first pair I’m going to talk about are these white slip on trainers.
Normally I don’t like slip on but these called to me, one because I hate laces so will be easier to put on and two I loved the rainbow on them.
They can be for either my friends and family who are LGBT+, and yes being Asexual I feel like I fit it the community.
I also felt they would work for me showing support for my friends and family who work for the NHS.
So it’s two birds one stone in a round about way.
The shoes didn’t say who made them but the inside of them felt really soft and they had tiny air hole in the shoe that helps keep the air circulating which will keep my feet cool and hopefully prevent my eczema playing up or make it less likely to.
If you would like a pair yourself you can buy them here.
https://www.everything5pounds.com/en/Slip-On-Elastic-Panel-Knit-Trainers/p/685369-356327-275
There is a black pair also but the colours didn’t stand out has much has the write ones.
I was hoping to post my blogs at 9am everyday but this week and some of last week thats kind of fallen by the way side.
So, what i’m doing is this week I’m not setting a time for me to upload, i’m just going to when I can, this is due to me A) not being able to get anything to blog about, B) Being full of a cold, C) keeping on top of uni work.
I’ve a few things come in the post that i’m able to do blogs on so that should work out better for me having things to post.
I’m trying not to get disheartend has that is when I start to slip off doing the blogs and i’m trying to get my mind set of that it’s not my fault and there is nothing I can do about it, it’s out of my hands.
One cool thing i’m going to look at doing is Wigan have their own app thats like Just-eat/uber eats and they have amarican candy stores on them so i’m going to look at ordering from a few of them and reviewing them.
So it’s not like i’m not looking for things just somtimes you have to take time for yourself and relax other wise things can get to much and things can cause you to lose focus which us not what I want to happen.
Well, I while I was out doing some shopping for Mum, meeting socal distance gulidelines of course, on Saturday, while I went to the shop where I had seen them on sale.
Unfortanally due to covid they couldn’t sell me one which I wonderstand, and to be honest the reasons they gave was reasons I hadn’t even thought of.
Although they did suggest trying online which I am going to do, but I will need to be prepaired for a long wait for it coming back.
I am really looking forward to it as I think it will be very intresting to look into.
I was hoping for more of a update to give you like what I had to do, hopfully it won’t be to long till I can tell you at least something.
When I was in town yeasterday doing some shopping for my mum I was in B&M for some of the things she needed.
While in I saw this cute coffee/hot Chocolate travel mug, it’s Mint green with a gold H, a gold lid and a gold line going around the bottom.
The H reminds me of the art deco style which is an art style I love.
It was in the sale down from £5 to £3, ok so that’s not a great saving but still it’s a saving.
Wanting to try it out and for my own Sanity has it looked like a fight was about to kick off and last thing needed was a fight to happen while I had bags, drop them and have an autstic meltdown.
So I thought best way to remove myself from that issue was to go into a coffee shop and also a chance to test the cup out.
I got myself a hot chocolate has it was to late for a coffee it was about 4pm, cut off point for me drinking coffee is 1pm unless I need to stay awake i.e traveling to a convention I could have gotten a tea but I don’t know but to me tea don’t taste has nice in travel mugs where coffee and hot chocolate does.
The coffee shop I went into have a thing where if you use you own travel mug or buy one of their reusable ones they give a percentage to a charity for supports the envoment which i’m all for.
I wantend to see how long the drink stayed hot, so I bought the drink at 4pm stopped for a minite to do a quick video to show the mug.
That was about 4:10 I then made my way to bus station that was a five minute walk, so I got to the bus station 4:15, had to wait for the bus which was at 4:20 then 10 minites home so 4:30ish by the time I got into my house and the drink was still hot.
This cup will be perfect for when I am able to go to conventions again specially the three day ones has I can run to the room make myself a coffee and it will stay warm or if they have a coffee shop or are near one like two of the hotels we stay at do I can just take it with me and get one from there.
Any way this cup was a find and it looks awesome, before I go again sorry for how late these blogs are at the moment I will try to getting them to a set time.
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