The days that I missed you are gone, the days where I wonder what I did wrong are gone.
I’m closeing the door on our past and trying to move on with my life the hurt you caused no longer importent.
I’m a better person without you in mylife, you messed me up, you broke me.
My soul left in peices but now it’s being put back together =, my heart is now whole.
The days that I missed you are gone now know I love and respect.
I’m late posting this blog because I’ve been dealing with a scammer on Instagram or a wannabe scammer.
I got a direct message on Instagram and being the person I am I said hi…of course then it turns to…”I am Alone, my wife died and I have a son who is 13…”
Then came the “I love you…” I did fall for a scam a few years ago but it was something different to this it was I tried to get something online.
I really don’t get what drives people to do things like this.
I do wonder if I should stop putting I’m Autistic in my tags.
I’ve been enjoying posting poems i’ve written so i’m now trying to get back into writting stories but is this a good place to share?
I’m open to suggestions for things to post.
I don’t hate you
I pity you.
Hate is a strong word, I don’t hate you, I just hate what you became.
There are days I miss you, I try and remember the things we did but there is nothing it’s has if, was any of it even real?
I don’t hate you.
I pity you.
I wish I could still see the good in you all the lies you told have locked that away.
I don’t hate you, hate is a strong word so I will just wish you the best.
You broke me, I was in pieces, you did what you promised you wouldn’t.
The lies you told, your filthy drugs and dirty lies, that left me lost and alone.
You turned people on me made them believe I was in the wrong but we both know the truth.
I thought I would never trust again, never give my heart to any one. The memories we shared are now but shadow, a mist, a fog, the rose tinted glasses I had on are now gone, no longer is the wool over my eyes.
People warned me, told me, I should walk away but I didn’t I guess that why I go burnt. I put mines around my heart so I wouldn’t get hurt again, bit then two angels came into myself and taught me it’s OK to feel.
They take me for who I am they don’t try to change me, let me be fun and free, they don’t mock or get angry they are kind, and fun, and caring and loving, my Parabatai and my Alpha. They let me be me.
So, now, I’m moving on, no longer do I worry about you, no longer do I miss the fondness and friendship we once had like our memory’s they are a mist and fog. You are the one who threw it away like it meant nothing, but I’m OK I’m moving on.
It’s almost a year since I went to my last wrestling show and almost a year since my last convention.
Still fighting this covid well covid I kindy ask you to just er do one.
I miss my friends, miss spending time with them.
You have taken so much, life’s, jobs, for what? What exactly is the point of you?
You have had your time but now it’s time to go.
This is the worst part of lock down, it’s not really having anything to write about, that being said I would much prefer to have my health and my friends and family safe.
Doesn’t stop me getting bored though has I’ve nothing to write about or do videos on.
So please send suggestions for both videos and blogs.
In my dreams things are happy, in my dreams i’m with those that love me.
In my dreams we are able to laugh and joke has if we was together.
I long for the days when we will be able to all be together, when we can laugh and joke.
It’s hard but i’m getting by until we can see each other, i’ll see you in my dreams.
My parabatai Midnight posted this on their Facebook so I thought I would post here.
• First concert – I think it was the smash hits poll winners Road show.
• Last concert – Night wish
• Best concert – Blue Gillespie in Preston
• Worst concert – can’t think of one
• Loudest concert – probably ones at men has there was so many people there.
• Seen the most – probably Blue Gillespie
• Most surprising – can’t think of one off top of my head but probably some of the acts at whitby.
• Next concert – No idea
• Wish I could have seen – there are so many.
Well it happened I miss a day I completely forgot.
Yesterday was such a strange day with my mental health I was good I didn’t feel sad or anything.
But I just didn’t want to do anything I just wanted to stay in bed, if you had met me in the street I would have seemed fine and I did feel fine but I just didn’t want to get up.
I kept telling myself to get up to make a move but I just couldn’t drag myself out.
It was like being pinned down, and not being aloud up or to do anything.
At 12:30am I realised I hadn’t even done a post on here.
So today I’m going to do 2 this one and one at my reg time.
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