Heather's adventures

Pets

Have pets they said, will be fun they said…

I have 1dog, Paddy (hate the name but…) 2 love birds Will and Tessa, 2 budges Jem and Dimond and 3 hamsters, Bug a boo, Castiel and Summer.

I got bug a boo down this morning for cuddles…looked in her cage, no bug a boo.

20 mins of me and mum looking she is in a pair of dad’s old pants…wouldn’t have noticed if it wasn’t for dogo with a what the hell is that moving look on his face…

Normally its the dog that disappears but today Bug a boo decided it was their turn to scare us.

Getting better at self care

OK so, the posting everyday hasn’t worked out has I would have liked.

However I think in away it’s a good thing.

I’m learning how to self care, I’m learning that its ok to miss days posting, I can rest, work on other projects spend time with Friends and family.

Yeah it’s hard, but I feel less stressed, I’m not worrying about when to post, what to post, is it long enough, is it good enough?

I’m starting back to uni on Monday which I’m looking forward to and hopefully then will have more to write about.

Also now that things are getting back to normal I will be able to write about more things.

Sadness copyright heather Sharpe 2021

Sometimes when things seem at the lowest I look up to the sky and smile has even though the sad times that’s what I’ve always done.

Always I’ve had to fight, I’ve never stopped it’s what I’ve had to do.

Devil always at my back always whispering.

Never giving in to his words always pushing in.

Everything seemed dark and lost till you came into my life.

So thank you, I don’t say it enough with out you mylife would be over.

So much in wish I could say but I hope you know what you mean to me.

Sunshine copyright heather Sharpe April 2021

Sunshine and rainbows seem so far away, but they are always in your reach.

Understanding that you are worth it, it isn’t easy but it’s worth it.

Never giving up never letting go you are stronger than you believe.

Stay strong, you are lover even when you don’t believe it.

Hope is always there now matter what, next to love, Hope is the strongest feeling.

I love you, I hope you believe and understand that you are my world.

Never think I’m going to leave your side because I’m here for good.

Everything thing will be alright, Everything will become clear now the sun is starting to shine.

Dna test part 3

After a month of waiting i finally got my Dna test results back and they are really intresting.

I used the my heritage Dna kit it took just over a month to get the results back to me there wasn’t really huge shocks although I was supised by some of the findings.

Like i’ve always thought I was 8th irish and 8th Scottish but the test results show i’m more than that.

It’s showed i’ve 41.9% Irish, Scottish, and Welsh so maybe i’m 8th Irish, 8th Scottish and 8th Welsh which would make up the amount or maybe I just have more Irish and Scottish in me than I thought.

44.7% English which yeah no surpise there although i did think it would be higher than that i was thinking more 70% 80% in a way i’m actully glad it’s less has it mean i’m more diverse.

Now this is the surpise 13.4% 2 other ethnicities which are 12.5% Scandinavian which I did kind of think there would be being from the North West of England, how ever what surpised me was that i’ve 0.9% Middle Eastern DNA.

I can only think this is one of two things, I do have a 3rd cousin whose dad is from the united arab emirates I know her personally and met her a few times, So it’s possible that is her fathers line, i’m still not sure how this works.

A other idea I have is that we always thought my dad had Mediterranean in him, he was very olive skin tonned specially when out in the sun so maybe thats where the middle easten comes from.

I’m in two minds if i should contact the people who i’ve been matched with has what do I say to them?

“Hi i’m your 3rd cousin from England” Once I’ve gone has far has I can with my family tree then maybe I will has it will fill in some of the blanks specially on the Irish side and some of the scottish.

It’s a long process but I would recommend people to do it has it is really intresting.

Im back

So… Im back i took some time away to look after mum and she is doing better thankfully not 100% but doing better.

I took longer off to both look after her and then to look after myself.

So tomorrow i will be back with my poems and other rambleings.

Mums not so good

For the past two years mum has been getting uti’s.

She has started with one again so I’m going to take this week off writing and YouTube to see to her.

Hopefully tomorrow the doctor will give her some antibiotics and she will be back to herself shortly.

I’ll be back next week.

Been a bit of a stressful day.

I don’t know why but today has been stressful.

It started out ok but then everything just went to pot.

I’ve had the page open to just try and write something but my head was all over the shop.

Hopefully tomorrow it will be a bit more with it.

But I’m getting better at learning to make time for myself and if my mental health isn’t great that it’s ok to step away.

I love you…doesn’t have to be said between lovers.

It can be said between family, between friends.

I love you doesn’t mean I want to go to bed with you.

It can mean just that, I love you, love is more than physical.

Love is platonic, love is deep, I love you more than I can say.

I thank you for all you have done, I’ve no words to express.

Without you life would be dull, life would be hard.

You make life worth something, you give me some to hold on to.

Some times i put up walls to defend myself like a shield, to protect myself.

Has time goes by them wall might start to crack and break so others can come in.

I never for get the hurt you caused or what you did, but it is forgiven.

Endless times I have thought about reaching out to you but then I think is it worth the pain.

Loss always hurts, but it’s a part of life if that be pysically or emtionally.

Don’t think I hate you becasue I don’t, I don’t wish you any ill will I wish you nothing but love but I have to put myself first and can’t allow myself to be hurt again.