1st of Jan 2021

Well, today is the start of 2021, I can only hope that this year is better than the last.

Today has been strange, normally I would walk into Wigan but due to us still being in Lock down and the weather I decided not to, although I did go to the local shop a few times.

I’m don’t know how to feel right now I thought I would feel sad being the first new year without dad not that we ever did anything apart from sit in the house.

I was same on Christmas day it just felt like a regular Christmas.

None of us really like new years dad never did, mum doesn’t and I don’t but I don’t know I just thought I would feel… Something…but I just feel numb.

I hope I’m not becoming cold like I did in 2009.

It took me a long time to feel before and I don’t want to be putting on the mask that everything is fine when it isn’t.

I’m not even that bothered about going into tier 4 apart from uni, cons, wrestling, seeing Ally and Midnight I really don’t have a life.

Although Ethan and Layla have had me laughing which is always good.

I watched the new Doctor who episode and I really enjoyed it.

I’m not going to post spoilers has I want to rewatch it later in the week and do a video/blog about it.

I did really enjoy it though.

So far 2021 has started quiet I just hope it stays this way.